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i just self-harmed for no fucking reason...... there has been this issue at home where there was a misplacement of my senior grad money and my parents were CONVINCED it was me and my sister's fault and they convinced us too so I started constructing false memories since they kept interrogating me for like thirty minutes on end and then tonight my mom found them in a folder whereas we had been looking for it in a ziplock baggie. We told them at the beginning of all this that we were sure they had gotten together and put it in a new place and that we had already taken most of it to the bank. They both adamantly denied that and then convinced us that we had done something irresponsible with it. After a particularly difficult phone call where my mom was trying to get me to "remember" where I'd put it, and I had been apologizing profusely with no reply, I got that toxic mentality that I thought I had escaped two years ago and grabbed a pair of scissors. Thankfully I didn't draw blood, I wanted to make it look like my rabbit did it. I just wish they would've believed me from the beginning. I didn't even feel any joy when they found it, I just wanted to throw up. Well, all's well that ends well and all that bullshit. I'll delete this eventually.